I FORGOT HOW IT WAS TO LOOK FORWARD TO EACH DAY. YES, I ACTUALLY HAD THOSE KIND OF MOMENTS.

it's been a month since i had this job and wow it is fucking tiring i just realised. i started out wanting something to preoccupy myself and i think i got a little more than i asked for...? and it's fucking annoying how they subtly(really?) discriminate me because i'm a student awaiting uni entry... seriously they are so sour and utterly childish about it i can't even put it into words. AND HECK THEY ARE TWICE TO THREE TIMES MY AGE. FUCKING DEAL WITH IT OK, GROW UP.

and i'm 99% going to ADM. people congratulate me but idk how to feel about it. gwen said my first day of school should be my first day there so i can't have second thoughts about it. i've been warned by more than just one person, hmm.

i am trying to be eggcited for japan, i was, but less so now, i don't know why.

and i hate that most things happen on weekends. i wanna go for hc camp too. ):

work. suckfest.

i just spent alot of unnecessary cash. but that keeps me going.