i'm extremely shaken after watching 'into the fire' it is so weird, not that i'm biased (or maybe i am but i'm so shaken i can't even see it or think straight and be objective right now) but i've seen so many american war movies and none of them have the same impact as this one. lol major T.O.P factor. it's just that i feel like my insides are churned over and over again i kinda wanna puke (partly due to slight gore) but i can't so i just sit there and think about it. i am really shaken. i don't know what to say. it does follow the whole tear-jerker-brotherhood-formula though. ok i guess it's just top. but no there's something about it idk how to express.

top bb i understand why you went into depression after you filmed i wish you could separate yourself from your character more easily but then i guess the end result wouldn't have been the same. so proud of you right now and when i see the bingu top dancing like some monkey on stage and kissing(?) daedae on kpop night i think you are the most precious, hilarious thing on earth and you wanna be a kid so badly. there are so many layers i don't even, sigh.

me being emotional about it and falling deeper into this whole thing, is dangerous. extremely. i do not look forward to seeing myself end up like crap. waiting to happen only.